3.9.11 Outside Basking.

3.9.11

Sitting outside at 3:20pm on the veranda, in an old wooden chair, basking the glorious sun and watching my cat watch the birds. They are eating the seeds that have been left ouf for them and are making loud cracking noises. My kitty is keeping a very close eye on them. It’s the second time she has been let outside. I’m sure if I wasn’t here, she be trying to catch the birds for dinner. I’m trying to do my assignment but I just can’t focus on it. It seems so boring and I’ve having trouble trying to locate sources to include in it. I have one book which is my text book… but she wants eight sources and only 3 of those can be websites, and so far none of the ereserve documents are any help at all to me. I wonder if teaching really is or me? Is it wht I’m meant to do? I want to help people learn and discover the beatuy of things they haven’t known before but I still am unsure if I want it as my career. I want to do english. That is certain. And I also want to do ancient. I’ve just been so lazy and I don’t know how to motivate myself anymore to actually knuckle down and study everyday, not just when I have assignments. 6 weeks into term and I’m only just starting to open my textbooks. Very bad. This semester was meant to be different. But I say that every semester and it hasn’t happened. At least I don’t have to work tonight. My arm is hurting a hell of alot and I really don’t want to be there lifting things when my arm hurts so much. The implanon feels strange.

It’s so pretty to listen to the birdies sing and be outside with nature. Watch my kitty explore. I feel more at peace today then I have for a long time.

I did my fitness age on the 1st. I'm 44 years of age now and I've lost 2 kilos. So essentially I've come down another 10 years. Which is good. I'm quite happy with that.

Time to go back and write some more of this essay before I go hang out with the boy.

Rosalinda, xoxo.