It's Raining, It's Pouring....

It is raining (again) and we're in the middle of October. Surely it should be starting to heat up by now, with not much wet weather. So you'd think. But apparently not. It seems, that it's staying cold, miserable, with lots of accompany rain. Which, really, gives me the perfect reason to stay indoors and do my assignments. Woo to rainy cold weather.

Some people wonder why I sign off things as Rosalinda Fairypie. I'm called that on Facebook, I print it on my cards, I basically use it on everything (which isn't government, work, or school related). Why, they ask? Because she is my alter ego. She is the woman who says and does stuff that Roslyn "shouldn't" do. Yes, people will now say "but you have to be your own person, not hide behind a facade." Well, to me, it's not hiding. It's developing myself and finding out who I am, as a person. Rosalinda Fairypie is part of me. I see people (mainly friends) who have to conform and fit in because otherwise their "friends" won't like them anymore. Hey, I know all about that. I've been there. I was kicked out of my primary school group of friends because one girl decided she didn't like me no more. In my first high school, I remember a friend and I picking on another girl because we thought she was too "different". In my second high school, I had to choose between my two groups of friends and "stick with one" as I recall.

But I was still a bit more different to the other girls in the group. I wasn't particularly loud, every singly moment of the day, I did try to break many school rules with my uniform and hair, I listened to weird music that even raised my then-boyfriend's eyebrows. I was strange. At the time, I wanted to fit in. But it also got to the point where I was sick of fitting in.

Isn't it also nice to know, that sometimes, your supposed "friends" still think you're weird. Most will say it or something about it. The other few, close ones will just laugh and say "that's what we love about you." I'm finding more and more, there aren't many friends left who say that. They seemed scared that I'm different. That I've changed. Honestly, though. Get over it. Become yourself. Ignore other people who bring you down. Back away from them. Create your own alter ego so you can "hide behind her" until you feel secure about who you are in this present moment. I'm still working me out. But I know I'm a lot closer to the idea of who I am then some of my friends.

Love and Butterflies,

Roslyn. xoxo