I miss you..

I know that they say time heals everything. But what if it doesn't? What do we do then? Pretend that we're not hurt? Pretend that it's all okay? I'm sick of pretending. It's just too hard to continue on in something that doesn't feel good for me. I need you to leave. To get out of my life. You've lied to much for me to trust you and you've hurt too many people. And I don't need you.

But, to my best friend. I miss you. So much. It hurts now. Like, really fully hurts. I don't know what to do. One part of me wants to say yes, but I'm fearing that it will screw with my mental state. And we know how that goes. :) It doesn't feel like anything has changed, except it has. Marjorly. I'm going to miss you so much next year. I'm not sure what I'm pining after. But all I know is, I need you. And no matter what happens, I'm still going to need you. Secretly, I'm hoping you'll need me too. You'll always be mine. Slightly possessive, I know. But you learnt that a long time ago.

I miss you. xoxo